I had thought that there would be so much to share about the Souls project in my writings. I had thought that I would be able to excavate and find the deeper longings, the truth behind each soul. I am learning that the beauty resides in our uniqueness and that not all souls come baring it all.
About two weeks ago I had a Souls encounter that was like dancing with the divine. I witnessed one who was radiating so brightly that I was moved, touched and inspired. This encounter rich and full. The essence, tones, resonance, and placing of words stirred me. This experience a gift, a privilege to witness. It was in the days following that my expectation crept in. Why was I not getting this from all of our shoots. What about the magic in the candid, in the imperfection, in the real. This time has been humbling and a lesson in the delicacy of allowing what is. I am embracing and falling in love with the beauty in the hidden, the sacredness of keeping things close. Amidst my judgement, I could feel my contraction, that place I go when I step out of the flow of ease and grace. The magic is not created here. The contrived and the forcing is disconnected and lacks the soul and connection that I so dearly love.
My acceptance of others, is birthing a whole new layer of self acceptance. At times I am in a place where I wish to lay it all bare, opening my heart for the world to see, equally as beautiful are the times to hold things close. There is much art in the revealing and much art in the holding. Some moments are so precious and sacred that words would take away from the sheer exquisiteness. There are some things that words cannot convey. There are also other reasons to hold, maybe past has shown that it is not always safe to open, the guard may serve until such time as it doesn't.
Just showing up takes real courage, however it is we show up. I am finding that my lens is capturing the true essence of another, regardless of words or appearance. The authenticity, the real and the raw is revealed. I am learning that things are not always what they seem. There is much intricacy and depth behind this human experience. Today I am grateful for the revelations of my lens. I cherish the unseen, the hidden. I cherish my 'mystery' so worthy of honour. These past many weeks i have experienced it all, death, birth, love, ecstacy, pain. What I have been journeying through has no words, I am in the space of the unnamed. Time is moving so fast, all I can do is come back within, trust that it is all in order and as it should be. x There is much said in silence. x